April 2024

I don’t think I can stick with one thing deeply for long.

I can never seem to organize things properly.

There’s always work to do, but I’m not really sure what it is that I actually want to do.

Design… design… design… I love it so much, but I constantly question it.

I keep thinking I should rebuild my blog again and start writing more.

Generalist vs. specialist… Until now, I’ve spent so much time wondering what I’m capable of, what’s fun to me, trying all kinds of different things… that I feel like I never learned how to become a specialist.

Lately I’ve suddenly been thinking: maybe I should quit working on the web.
The reason is… once things become too extreme, the responsibility becomes overwhelming, and the workload ends up very different from what I expected.
But honestly, I think I quit other kinds of work for similar reasons too…
Sometimes I wonder if I should just make small apps instead.
The web is such a powerful medium for visibility and promotion, but that openness can also feel like a weakness.
Small web projects are fun in themselves, but often they stop there.
Maybe it’s better if the web remains one strong tool among many for me.

If I were to make apps…
they’d probably be full of bugs and rough around the edges, but still interesting.
And unlike something that only stays “fun,” it feels like apps could continue growing into something more.
While organizing old files, I realized I’ve actually been interested in apps for a very long time.

It’s difficult.

What I love about the web is how easily things gather and scatter.
That fluidity is fun.
It also felt easy to approach at first.

The advantage of apps is…

they can be limited to mobile.

A fixed device almost feels like working within a fixed book format—
the material conditions are already defined,
so it becomes easier to anticipate the outcome,
and there’s a certain joy in creating within those constraints.

In that sense,
apps feel a little similar to books.

Maybe I want something that belongs a bit more to myself.

Ah!

It’s hard!

…

Rather than solving technical or practical inconveniences,

I think I’m more interested in creating things that are fun,
that can inspire people…

Ways of giving weight to intangible things,
ways of making digital experiences feel tactile and physical—
there seem to be many different design approaches for that within apps.

That part feels exciting too.

Anyway, these days,
nothing really makes my heart race anymore.

Yeah…
I think that’s what it is.

(Migrated from d-exhale)

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This text was machine translated.
Original language: Korean.