False Life and Truth

Have I lived a false life for too long? I no longer know what is true, or what sincerity even is.

Q.
What do I truly want?
Is it really what I truly want?

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I lived a life deceiving myself.
From now on, I want to live truthfully, without deceiving myself anymore. I think that is something I can do for myself.

While living a false life of self-deception, I fragmented into countless unknowable selves, and now I no longer know where my original self is, or what it even was.

Sometimes I believe something is true and sincerely desired, only to fall back into doubt again.

Q.
What is my original self?
Does such a thing as an “original self” even exist?
Could this false life and my current state be more deeply connected than I realize?

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I am planning a process of looking back on myself, accepting myself as I am, and searching for who I truly am.

(Migrated from d-exhale)

This text was machine translated.

Original language: Korean.